Random Thoughts

These last few weeks have struggle for me mentally, emotionally and spiritually. September 14th was the second anniversary of the date that I lost my mom to a brain anurisim. It still hurts to know that until I go to heaven I will not see my mom for the rest of my life. Sometimes I still can't believe that she is gone. I think what hurts the most is that she does not get to see her beautiful grandchildren (my two and my sister's one) grow up. And they do not get to experience the love and spoiling I know she would have given them. Hannah got to be around her for a short period of her life. She was 14 months when Mama died. Mama loved her so much and was so very proud of her. I do think that it is neat how Hannah looks just like Mama. I get comments all the time about how much Hannah looks like her Nana. I know she would be of Cayden and Parker too. She never got to have a little boy and I know both Cayden and Parker would have melted her heart, just like they do their mother's hearts. I know it is selfish but there are so many days when I really need my mama. It doesn't matter how old you are you always need your mama. I miss being able to call her and tell her about my day, or go shopping with her, or ask her advice about something. All of those things you take for granted when they are here with you. So for those of you who still have your mother's around make sure they know you love them and that you appreciate everything that they do. But if you are like me and have lost your mother, cherish the memories and live your life in a way that you know would make her proud. And if you know that she had a personal relationship with Christ as well as yourself, take comfort in the fact that the seperation you experience on earth is only temporary and one day you will have a grand reunion as you both worship and bow down before the awesome God who loves you and created you.

Practice Cake

I just finished my practice run of the princess castle cake for my daughter's birthday party. Her birthday is tomorrow so I wanted her to have a cake on her actual birthday and I needed the practice for the cake for Saturday. To my surprise the cake was not hard to make and it doesn't look that bad. It's not professional but my daughter loves it and that is the most important thing. The one I am going to make Saturday is going to be bigger but I don't think it will be any harder. The most important part of making the whole thing is to put it in the freezer between each layer of icing so that it can set up. Thank goodness we bought a new freezer last week that has ample space for me to put the cake in. I don't know what I would have done without it because until we bought the new freezer my old one was jammed full. I will publish pictures when I figure out how to do that.

Waiting!!!

My sister is expecting her first child any time now and I am anxiously waiting for the phone call that she is in labor. I think I am more anxious about her first child then I was about mine. I think one reason I am so anxious is I don't know how I will get there when she does go into labor. Hopefully it will be during the day because we are down to one vehicle right now and I don't want to have to leave my husband with no vehicle if I have to leave during the night. However, I know God's timing is true and right and for right now all I can do is pray for an easy delivery for her and a healthy baby.

Sunday Afternoon

So it's Sunday and we had a great service this morning. Attendance was down some but that can be expected during the summer. We had a good meal at the house and everyone is settling in for a restful Sunday afternoon. I got a few more things done for the party and now I am going to rest for a little bit, because Sunday afternoons should always include a nap. When we first got married Craigan thought I was crazy for taking a nap on Sunday's, but for me it was the norm in my family. Sunday afternoon naps are the best. However, Craigan now understands how great it is to take a nap on Sunday's. So, now I am going to take advantage of the rest of the afternoon and take a nap or at least rest some.

Hannah's Birthday Cake!!!

My daughter Hannah's birthday is the week and we are having a party on Saturday. She is turning three and wants a princess castle cake. So, me being the pleasing type mom wants to give her a princess cake. However, my baking skills are novice at best and until recently I didn't really care for baking. I love to cook just not bake. However I'm going to give it my best shot and see what happens because I refuse to pay 60-80 dollars for someone else to make one. So, I have been looking online for ideas and think that I have a pretty good idea as to how to attempt to make this happen. I will keep posted as to how the cake turns out and try to post picks of the finished product. Oh, and did I mention that my sister is expecting her first child anytime now which adds more of a challenge if she goes into labor before Saturday. I am trying to get as much accomplished as quickly as possible just in case baby Parker decides to make his debut this week. So now I am going to get off the computer and get busy with the long list of to-do's I have.